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What to expect:
π Hockey Romance
πΆπ» Single Dad/Biker Girl
πββ¬ Black Cat/Grumpy NHL Captain
π₯° Age Gap
βNo Third Act Break Up
πFound Family

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βHand over a little of that control, Baby. You can trust me with it.β
Another inch closer, and Iβll be doing just thatβkissing him.
βArenβt you scared?β I ask. βYouβve lost people too. You could start falling for me, and then I could just up and leave.β
βOh, Baby Girl.β He runs the callous pad of his thumb across my bottom lip, smiling knowingly at me.
βFor a girl who thinks she has it all worked out, you just donβt get it, do you?β
Even if I wanted to reply, I couldnβt.
Sawyer closes the remaining distance between us, whispering against my lips, βI already am.β
Just like I knew I would, I let him kiss me. Every single bone melting until I canβt be sure Iβm upright.
His hand slides further along the bench until it leaves the wooden frame and wraps around my shoulder, pulling me into him.
This kiss is sweet with no tongues, a dance and test of each otherβs limitations. Or maybe just mine. But I know what I want, even if a part of me screams to ignore it.
A whimper races up my throat, the appreciative sound urging him on. His smooth tongue lightly traces the seam of my lips, and I part for him like a goddamn river breaking its banks.
Sawyer smiles into the kiss, satisfied with how easy it was to have his way with me.
I pull away from him, chest heaving, blood pumping, tingles everywhereβespecially between my thighs. βYou see, this is exactly what I mean. Kissing you is dangerous.β
A soft laugh bubbles from him, and he ducks his head, kissing the underside of my jaw. βI want to do a lot more than just kiss you.β
I feel my thong grow damp. βYou know we canβt do that.β
He kisses my jaw again. βFor the same reasons you told me we couldnβt kiss?β
I feel my defenses fly up. I need to shut down this conversation before it ventures into unsafe territory like discussing the feelings I know Iβm rapidly developing for this man. βNo. Because last time was only above average.β I blurt out in a panic.
He looks hurt, and I hate that.
βI was more than a six, and you know it.β
Shaking my head, I shuffle a centimeter away from him. βNo, that was the truth. It was β¦ vanilla?β
Sawyer narrows his eyes. βYouβre being totally serious, arenβt you?β
I nod once, despising my response. My hesitancy to sleep with him again isnβt centered around his abilities in bed, and I know it. Thereβs only one way Iβd let Sawyer take me back to bed, and thatβs if feelings werenβt involved for him and Ezra wasnβt at risk of getting pulled into it. The worst-case scenario would be him seeing us in a compromising position and wondering if I was his dadβs girlfriend after all. I could never do that to him or Sawyer.
Regardless of my nod, Sawyer looks determined, reaching out and twisting a lock of my hair around his finger. βHypothetically speaking, if we slept together again, what would you want me to do?β
Oh Jesus.
The ache in my core borders on unbearable, and I bite my lip, trying to center myself.
βI guess, first, Iβd like you to not fall any further for me. Sex, combined with emotions, makes things complicated.β
He visibly deflates, and I feel shitty for it.
βSo, you only want a no-strings type of arrangement?β
βYes. I think youβre hot as fuck, and I can show you what I like in bed. But for everyoneβs sake, this can only be about sex. If you donβt think you can do that, then I get it.β
Sawyerβs eyes search mineβpain, frustration, annoyance, and then acceptance passing through them like a carousel. βIf it were only me, I would risk my feelings to be with you in any way you wanted. This isnβt just about me though, and I canβt only think of myself; I have to think of my son too. Heβs perceptiveβmaybe more than Iβve previously given him credit forβand I donβt want to sneak around behind his back. If we were just fuck buddies, thatβs what weβd have to do.β Sawyer tucks the piece of hair he was playing with behind my ear. He doesnβt look certain of his next words, an internal war taking place in his mind. βAnd I donβt think I can do that.β
I donβt reply because there isnβt anything else to say. Heβs right. The cold facts are here, between us, swirling in the freezing Brooklyn night sky.
This is the right decision.
This is for the best. For me, for Sawyer, and especially for Ezra.
Iβm not mom material; I can barely hold down a job, for Christβs sake.
My time in New York was slowly coming to an end anyway, and this way, no one gets hurt.
So, why does it already feel like I am?
Blurb:
The plan was simple: just me, my boy and hockey.
Iβm the unapproachable NHL captain with a reputation for chewing up reporters in interviews, forwards on the ice and shutting down anyone who tries to get close to me. And thatβs how I like itβno feelings, no complications, and zero chance of reliving the grief I experienced when my wife passed away seven years ago.
But sometimes the best laid plans go up in flames, and thatβs exactly what Collins Mackenzie does when strolls into a bar one post-game night and gives me a taste of the cold shoulder Iβve bestowed on all those around me.
The only person she doesnβt dismiss? My boy. In fact, she lights him up with her pink hair and perfectly winged eyeliner, leaving him fascinated and me infatuated.
Thereβs only one problem: sheβs nine years younger, convinced Iβm not her type and doesnβt do relationships. She doesnβt even hang around in the same city beyond a few months. Trouble is, I want her permanence right next to meβon the couch watching movies and in my bed on lazy mornings.
Iβm ready to chase her, no matter where she goes or how quickly she hits the accelerator. This girl is a ride I never want to get off.
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I canβt hold back my smile as I dive into the pool. When I emerge, Jackson is inches from me. I run my hands through my hair, pushing my breasts out farther, practically asking for trouble.
βYou know how this looks. If Noah walks outβ¦β
βLike two people having an innocent swim?β I ask, sucking in my bottom lip.
He swims around me. βIs this innocent, Peach?β
βIβm not sure.β
My heart rate spikes. Heβs behind me now, the heat of his body radiating against my skin. Tension builds between my thighs. His warm breath brushes against my earlobe. βWhat exactly do you think is going to happen that makes this not innocent?β
Heβs baiting me. He wants me to admit what I want. His hand loops around my belly, tugging me against him, and I gasp. Heβs hard everywhere. His erection presses between my ass cheeks. My body feels like itβs on fire, a surge of lust coursing through meβ¦
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